My first encounter with one of Akasha's stories was in 1999. I was on the usenet looking for a forum to troll. I stumbled onto the femdom newsgroup. I did my "troll recon" to get a feel as to whether my trolling efforts would yield the desired results or be a waste of time. I read Akasha's "The Corruption of Tyler" . This was my first encounter with femdom erotica and I found myself intrigued. I found myself saying "whoa, this is ****ed up", but I couldn't stop reading it.
Before I go any further, I'd like to clear a few things up. I am not a "sub" (in the true sense), and I'm not in the BDSM/SM scene. I'm as "vanilla" as it gets. As my handle implies, I'm a "Looky loo". There are times when I have fantasies of being dominated, and there are times when I'm like "Aw, hell no!" For months on end, I can be in "hell naw" mode and then one day "it" sneaks up on me. Right now, I'm fluctuating between "hell naw" and "sub fantasy" mode.
Now, back to what I was saying about the "Corruption of Tyler", I couldn't stop reading it. I found myself wanting to read more. Although I found myself intrigued, I was torn between being disgusted ("No real man would want that **** to be done to him!") to actually being turned on. I went to the Akasha site to read more. After reading the available parts of "Space Age Love Song", the "Corruption" story didn't seem so ****ed up anymore. I can honestly say that SALS was ta mind**** for me. I felt anger, fear, defiance, hate, confusion (my views on gender roles are traditional) and arousal all at once. It was like an emotional storm. It was also energizing. Yet, I could not stop reading. I wanted more.
Tonight, I re-read SALS for the first time since 99. I felt the same "emotional storm". Same mind****. The difference this time is I read it in its entirety. I couldn't help but ask "What kind of mind comes up with this?" Women are evil! Still, I am intrigued.